The beginning

Hello, I just thought I'd start a blog and put my thoughts up for everyone to see. Although I'm not exactly comfortable with the idea, but I'm sure I can post my thoughts and desires up here that I wouldn't mind my family, friends, and some strangers, should they come across my blog, knowing.

So, I will say that I have been thinking about life and what I am missing from it. I can say, concerning material things and worldly desires, that I am not really missing anything. Yet, I have not been very happy with my being here. There is something missing and I very, very well know what is missing. For the past three years, my spirituality has been in the dumps and I have started over and over several times, but I never use the tools needed to keep going and to grow. I fail each time. I didn't go to anyone for help. I didn't use the Word. I didn't take time to be humble, bow to my knees, and have a direct talk with God. Oh, I would think of Him daily and send thoughts up to God, but that apparently didn't work in creating that wonderful friendship that one should desire and have with God. I didn't take the time to do this and my life has been so busy and I can say it is quite similar to trying to hopscotch on a treadmill at a speed high enough that you can barely keep up with the numbered squares.

Since the Sea Breeze Campmeeting in Hobe Sound, FL., I have given much thought about my own soul. Where do I want my soul to be? Where do I want to spend eternity?

Through the help and encouragement of a great friend (and with whom I hold my accountability for now), I finally returned to God after a long hiatus. I gave myself over to Him and have a great desire to know Him more and grow in His presence. I am now going to take the time to draw myself closer to God and I have no desire to lose Him this time. Jesus' return is so close, yet imminent, we cannot afford to drift in our spirituality.

That being said, this is the beginning of what I hope is a lifelong, however long it may be, relationship with God that will only grow more and more intimate daily, and will create a more and more perfect heart in me!

The next few blogs may include some discoveries I make or a study of what I already know but did not try to understand completely before or to apply to my daily living when I was doing well spiritually nearly three years ago. They may also include random happenings, thoughts, updates, and whatever I may want to include. So, I think I had better close for now and let you rest. :)